How would I describe our ashram or Baba Amritnath, who, with his endless powers, is beyond all descriptions. Hardly anybody can describe him completely. I have seen from my childhood that all my family is devoted to Shri Nathji Maharaj and we have lived our lives with his kind blessings. The gruesomely difficult lives of my parents were eased and freed by the blessings of Shri Amritnathji Maharaj. Otherwise living for them would have been a tremendous struggle. My sister was also bestowed upon with the gift of life by our Guru Maharaj.
How do I prove how close we are to our Nathji Maharaj? This one incident will surely justify it. Once, when I was a child, my elder brother, who is no more in this world, went to fetch milk from the farm. The road went past the shamshan (crematorium). On his way back, he saw a dead body being burnt and got scared. He then felt a presence beside him, which he realized to be of none other than Baba Shri Shubh Nathji Maharaj. He told him, “Why are you getting afraid? I’m there with you.” Such is our Guru Maharaj, who is beyond all explanations. I salute Shri Nathji Maharaj time and again, who has been with us in every step and has relieved us from every sorrow and peril.
Due to the practices at Ramsnehi Panth’s in-laws’ place, I remained separated from the ashram and my Guru. But due to the blessings of Baba Amritnathji, nothing could affect my firm belief and attachment and I became a disciple of the ashram. I have repented and lamented all my life for all the time I lost in sins.
How can I describe the peace and happiness that I got after I became a disciple? I got happy both mentally and physically due to Guru Maharaj’s blessings. Children have been saved from all accidents and diseases and the whole atmosphere at home changed. Otherwise I might not have been alive today. It has been only due to the blessings of Shri Nathji Maharaj that my family and I have been gifted with our lives. My only prayer to our Guru, who shares all our sorrows, comes to know about everything without even hearing about them and nullifies all grieves from our hearts, is that I remain devoted to him all my life. I have lost nine years of my life. But after becoming a disciple, the completeness of life that I have realized, I pray that it remains for ever and I remain closely attached to my Guru and the ashram for the rest of my life.
I cannot express all my thoughts in words. Or else I would have penned down all my devotion and my soul on this paper. How do I describe or explain my Guru Maharaj or the ashram? I am unable to explain the fulfillment as I am still incomplete. I am a child of my Guru Maharaj. The first visual I had after becoming a disciple was that Baba Shri Amritnathji was roaming in a crowd. There was a very old, dilapidated well and a room beside. I had this dream in 1997 and I saw the place in reality in 1999, where I saw that the room had a balcony outside and the well had been renovated.
The second visual I had, was of the fare in the ashram that is going to be held. I had it when our Guru Maharaj told us that the senior Maharaj’s birthday was coming up and asked us about the celebration. Then I had the visual that the ashram is full of lights and there were several prayer altars around the place. There were tents and the complete versions of the purans were being read. All the purans were included in them – the Ramayana, the Mahabharata, the Shivpuran and all the other ancient scriptures were being read out with the sacred sounds. There were sounds of mantras being chanted all around. I saw that we have brought out a rally across the whole of Fatehpur where school children were participating along with the devotees. This is how I had this visual in 2000 after Guru Poornima (full moon), which is going to come true pretty soon.
Once again I salute the great Guru Shri Amritnathji Maharaj and the ashram. Glory be to Shri Nathji Maharaj!
Srimati Jyoti / Sitaram Ji Bhati
New Line, Bothra Chawk
Gangashahar, Bikaner (Rajasthan)